I want to be happy.
I want peace and understanding
I want more faith
I’ve been experience somewhat of a relapse in my depression and naturally it is affecting every single thing I do. Should it? Of course not. But I’m still trying to figure out how not to let it control me. It’s hard.
My body aches. All over. Physically I’m exhausted. Mentally, I’m drained. Spiritually, I’m on empty.
I don’t understand why God allows certain things to happen. Never in a million years did I think I’d be filing bankruptcy at the age of 25. Nor did I think I’d be living back at home working a minimum wage job (and only part time at that)
Just when I thought my health problems were getting somewhat better…….things fall apart again. Blah…..kidney stones….blah root canals….blah pap smears (haven’t had my little friend since last July so…..hmmm…and NO, I’m not pregnant. ya gotta do something to get pregnant and i can assure you that I’m not. 
they are also testing my prolactin (sp?) levels.
I actually had something interesting to talk about but I’m on a pain killer for my kidney stone and i’m starting to nod off.
time to get off my laptop before i drop it off my bed.
